Written on 27/11/2011. Sunday
I lost a dear Aunt yesterday………. I thought there was plenty of time…that it was just another hospital trip but Death proved me wrong.
My wedding album is turning into a facebook of departed souls
Yet another smiling face in a Kanchipuram saree left yesterday
Just last Sunday, she talked, smiled and even joked with my sister
though yellow and sick, from her hospital bed.
Today is again a Sunday, gray with her ashes.
She left, leaving me churning in a personal ocean of undiluted guilt.
For ten years ,she wasn’t a priority
She had invited a blissful couple to her place
Children, jobs, land deals, marriages, illness
all took precedence over her call
After all, she was not one to fall sick ever…
For ten years, I had plenty of excuses from across the ocean
for not having visited her
Today I cannot find a single, authentic one that can redeem my guilt
Now she smiles like once before in my dreams,
hugging and comforting me
And I wake up on wet pillows, sobbing with grief.