When the shadows of twilight
hum a soothing hymn,
softly some sleepy trees join in
Heads under tired wings
trust the darkness
to hold up the sky till dawn blinks

A glow of light warms a cold window sill
A mother sits praying, a baby dreams
Her reassuring heartbeats
ease out the day’s aches
She watches over her tiny bit of the world
her woes dissolving in a lapful of love

She stays awake
and a part of the restless night
gratefully sleeps
©Reena Prasad 10th May 2013

To my parents- celebrating 49 years of togetherness

My Dad – My super hero

by Butterflies Oftimeon Monday, 11 June 2012 at 14:51 ·

Ours being a family where we never felt the need to use words like ‘I love you’  in the normal course of living, it seems a little bit awkward to say it out and loud now . I love you Dad. Have always done and will always do. There it is- so much easier to say it out when I know that you may never read my post here since you have never been able to get used to reading anything on the net and I wouldn’t dream of giving you a hard time, forcing you to do something you have never liked just because I happened to write a few words especially today on your 80th birthday.

I have been thinking of some special moments and it strikes me that every moment with you has been equally special in one way or the other. Right from the time, when I was about three and you used to take me out to under the ‘vazhas’ at night when I got up disoriented and groggy rather than to the little bathroom inside the house, for you knew how scared I was of the big, red cockroaches that scurried and flew each time the lights were switched on. While I squatted under the green trees that threw shadows everywhere in the moonlight, you stood guard a little distance away looking at the moon and pointing out her beauty to me. I have never stopped looking at the moon Dad; I don’t think I ever will for she looked every inch a queen in the dark sky, flooding our little green garden with her pale flood lights.

Then you cycling to the old Ambagan market with me perched on a tiny seat on the front rod of the Atlas bicycle, us wobbling together whenever we hit a pot hole and almost falling when a car honked suddenly behind us. You tried to dissuade me from coming with you but the lure of the little shop selling comics and magazines next to the Baniya’s shop was too great . You complained that my ‘Champak’ and ‘Chandamama’ cost more than your Malayalam weeklies but still I got my own way each time. Mom used to say that you were hot -tempered but with the coming of a son and a daughter who laughed at everything, by the time I arrived eight years later, you seemed more like a gentle grandfather to me.

Thinking back, I can’t imagine a more patient and gentler human being than you. It was a laughter riot at home each time something new cropped up.. like our buying a second-hand Ambassador and you taking it out of the garage for the first time and accidently knocking down a whole side wall and making the driving instructor run for his life,  then forgetting the fact that it had a power horn and blasting off the dreadful noise at passersby on cycles , who hurriedly abandoned their cycles and jumped up on the pavements to save themselves from being crushed under a huge piece of road machinery (as they probably thought on hearing the terrible honking horn).. then opening the car door to apologise to them forgetting that we were in the middle of a main road…and trying to get out of the car without removing the seat belt…. The power brake too added to the fun for we on the back seat often found ourselves miraculously up front when Dad spotted a road hump at the last minute.  But Dad, you too had a great sense of humour and never seemed to mind the sarcastic remarks that Mom made when you made her get down to push the car once when it stalled and then drove off forgetting to let her get back in..

Dad , we all share your love for food – those lassis topped with Bournvita and coconut , the samosas, alu parathas, all kinds of sweets, payasams – are all associated with a million memories and they rank foremost in my food choices even today.. a reminder that food fads do depend more on pleasant associations rather than just taste.

I am so thankful that religion never played a big part in our lives for you would never dream of differentiating between people just because they tried to imagine god in their own way. You showed your compassion, your love, your concern for the people around you in your inimitable way of reaching out with a helping hand to those in need without preaching a word. Temples never attracted you and though you were ever willing to accompany those who wanted to go and pray, you always did prefer to avoid the crowds and wait outside, admiring the architecture. It taught me at an early age that god did not necessarily confine himself to a closed chamber but also took strolls outside when it suited him.

I am deeply sorry Dad that I threw a stone at you for throwing stones at the stray dog that had dug up the tapioca planted by you when I was six. Also I am sorry for my indignant outbursts after a boyfriend on coming home for the first time, discovered you in the living room wearing only a ‘thorthu’ with another one wrapped around your head and with your feet in a green basin of warm water, reading a magazine with a picture of a voluptuous, blouse- clad lady on the front cover( a very common illustration of the Malayali woman found in all Malayalam payinkili magazines).

I remember the look on your face too when you had enough of Mom’s complaining about the numerous kittens wandering in and out of the kitchen and you took two of them on the Lamby scooter in a plastic bag, mewing and scratching for all they were worth and dumped them in an abandoned plot of land next to the milkmen’s colony about 5 km away from our house ..and returned home to find the very same two, sitting near our front door in the mild winter sun, washing themselves nonchalantly as if nothing of the sort had ever happened!

Also priceless are the memories of our car trip from Alapuzha to Rourkela over the Nilgiri mountains with a driver who was assailed by diarrhoea and allergic to non-tamil food, the great train robbery when the two of us were travelling to Kerala which left me no option but to wear a spare trouser of yours at the age of sixteen which fitted neither at the waist nor reached my ankles for I was taller and considerably slimmer than you at that age, the trips to Calcutta, Bombay, Bhilai, Manipur and many many more.

Memories slosh inside me leaving me at a loss for meaningful words that can convey even a feel of how privileged I feel for having been born as your daughter- a mere example of crafty synastry that had you walking into Mom’s home all alone and asking my grandmother for Mom’s hand in marriage, getting married and carting her off to Rourkela within the space of a few weeks.

A blessed childhood, a firm belief in the innate goodness of mankind, a love for life and all living things, a love for the English language, a passion for crossword puzzles and a penchant for always walking the straight path – all are gifts bestowed by you Dad.

A phone call in the morning to wish you a Happy 80th Birthday was all I could do but I know it was enough to make you smile as you went on your customary morning walk and I can see you so very clearly, walking down the potholed road, stopping and smiling cheerfully at neighbours, plucking a leaf now and then from a roadside plant , tearing it into two and breathing in its particular smell, sometimes putting it into your breast pocket absentmindedly…putting out a hand and catching the monsoon raindrops as they bounce off the roofs of houses…. these are the images that I carry with me as I go about my chores in this desert land so far away from you , dreaming about the few weeks yet to pass till I am back in your familiar, comforting hug. I ask you like always if there is something you want from here, basking in the knowledge  that your unspoken answer will always be  ‘only you- safe and sound” Love you Dad

This is something I wrote in my Facebook notes for Dad’s last birthday but never got around to putting it in my blog.


And this one is for you Mom, A poem to celebrate the most beautiful woman I have ever known!

Mother beautiful

by Butterflies Oftimeon Sunday, 23 September 2012 at 12:58 ·
As she turned round and round
the folds of dazzling silk fell into place
Perfectly draped upon her shapely waist
With pins between her teeth, she made sure
the brocade rested securely over her fragile shoulders.  

A ritual engraved into my childhood mornings
like the hearty breakfast before school
Watching her choose between crimson and cream
Marveled my little girl-eyes, at how easily her mother coped
Twisting six yards of heavy cloth,
ending up as a goddess’s dream.  

Divinity embedded , her red bindi flushed
with happiness as she embraced her morning tasks
I looked at the old calendar picturing the deities
Glossy, radiant and gold covered maybe
but merely pale shadows of my mother in her sari.

© Reena Prasad 2012

The battlefield

‘Scuds’ whizz past amidst fierce chants
declaring war
A frisson of potential devastation
reverberates through the glass panes
Vertical ascension feats witnessed
in the open doorways
Fake but piercing cries attenuate the sense of doom
war paint glitters, elephant herds trumpet away
Ferraris toot impatient horns
amidst roars of a wounded tiger.

Slow silence spreads her arms
like an unobtrusive thought
yet within seconds, intrinsic alarm bells
are set off
blaring the mega absence of  any sound.

Just a heartbeat away, ever alert
dread hastening her bare feet,
a mother enters the battlefield.

Two little warriors lie hushed
in the combat zone
captive, tussled, utterly defeated
by an innocuous fairytale.
© Reena Prasad
17th August 2012



Mothers and daughters

‘Mom, aren’t you coming to bed?’
She asks, tugging at my nightdress
Her pretty hair tousled
baby feet jiggling impatiently
at the sight of a pen in my hand.
I see and hear you, my darling
And I see her too, my dearest Mom
Her eyes, she has shared with you
to look at me whenever you do.

When you grumble at the boiled peas
your tiny noises of protest make me smile
I miss the little green trees in her apron,
her gentle admonishings coaxing me
to have just a teaspoon more.
You twirl around in your new white frock
Dancing away your heart on your small toes
I see our tango–hers and mine
Perched on her hip, close to her breath.

Sometimes I know that you are just bored
there aren’t any more pebbles to throw
The pond in our backyard is just a memory
Unlike some familiar, remembered genes,
in your threads that lushly glow
I am not really annoyed when I scowl
Missing you even as you turn to go
But you always remember to turn and wave
And there, waving her little one, off to school
is my Mom, at the kitchen window.

Time cycles down some winding lanes
You become her and she will be you again
Moments when love pushes open genetic doors
and marches out from under girly curls and bows
Exasperated at some dumb moment of daughters
Or so proud that they forget their heavenly haloes
Motherhood comes alive in times of need
To shine within other mothers- to be
The wisdom passed from gene to gene
reassures me of invincible immortality within.

So here we go hand in hand,
to dream of a loving land
Where mothers will smile and wave fairy wands
To make better lives for little angels left behind.
I pray, you may dream on a little while more
For the dawn to come only when you wish
And as I snuggle into your baby smell
I dream of another night, another happy nap|
When bed for me was my mother’s lap.
Reena Prasad

Unopened gift

Dapper wings
caught on a twig
Paper-light flutters
buried hopes.
On closer look

Natural bonds
never clicked into place.
The bent bough
laden with grapes
willing to remain aloft
till gravity pulls it down.

A gift fated to be
forever new,
A desolate well
Tattered ribbons mill about
Homeless hope stumbles around
A miracle lies
under the unknown.

floats the little raft
needing none
to light up unreal horizons
resplendent, its inner shore.
Destined to grow till love flows
With no return gifts
At least none to boast.

The lone boat sails on, weary,
Unwanted treasures under its oars
The next in line shall want no more
Sings the sea to the shore.

And he gathers the remanents of faith
as a thin shawl over shoulders of grief
scattering seeds for the passing birds
to carry or to spread around
The tears that never really stop inside
float with small wings into an oceans’s roar.

©Reena Prasad Feb 2012

Morning woes

Morning woes


My wake up calls

always prompting an angry response

for having broken into their innocent dreams

The complaints of the water’s coldness,

the imagined leg and tummy aches

Hostility towards the glass of warm milk

for it signals the approaching hour

The push and pull to get into stipulated uniforms

and then a hug and a kiss

they are gone…

As the door shuts,I turn to see

two little pairs of slippers

abandoned on the living room floor

Two tiny pairs that remind me

throughout the day

They never want to leave

I am the one who pushed them away.




Love, this is how I want to grow old
with you by my side
looking at the sea together,
once we are done looking
at each other.
The wrinkles on our faces,
our silvery- white hair,
One day they won’t matter any more
What will count is our special space,
painstakingly engraved by time’s grace.
The knowledge that we did our best
in times that were our love’s worst tests
will bring tolerance and grace-
the exclusive privileges of love’s wisdom.
Till then let us try
to align our souls

when passing through
Life’s detours

with my hand gently clasped
in yours.


Child in Progress

Pushing the door open
I entered bare foot into a dream
A Toy story scene

                                           S  cat  te red           S                                      million     bits      of     p a p e r    c~o~ n~ f~ e~ t~t~ i      on    the       FLOOR                                  Water                CHAOS        an          IN-THING                                                                                         Paint                        galore                           decor                                                                            fallen           ART                         modern                                             upturned              C Η ∀ Ι ℜ Š               Τ ∀ ß Γ ∃  Š                                         Tiny             balls                    rolling              around
     ENTANGLED          in           a       mesh             of     wool   STRINGS

            a tiny image of me

Between a crane and a warship                Immersed in his world, I see
Airplanes and trains under bridges         moving in perfect harmony
Peacocks on lotuses                                      ducks marching in single file
Tables-their legs in the air                         teddies in party hats with  flair

                                                     Tidying up is a crime
                             Baby time : a happy face covered with grime
A need to embrace the busy soul
threatens to transgress

but drums bang a warning
                                                          Do not disturb
                                                   A child in progress

©Reena Prasad